i wish i could tell you this to your face. but then you would tell her, and she doesn't need to know. i don't think you were my first love, rather a crush i had; and a 'gay awakening' . i hope you know that you'll always hold a special place in my heart because of that. seeing you with her hurts, but what can i do? it's not like you liked me anyway. even after i was there for you, and helped you get over her, you still managed to paint me in a bad light. i can't believe that this was all 'friendly'. idk maybe im different but i wouldn't talk to my gay friends like that knowing they're gay. i hope you don't see this, but if you do; i'm sorry.