Unsent Messages

i think about you from time to time. i just wonder what went wrong. was it the distance? the trust issues we both have? the way your ex ruined your emotions? my own fear of love? i don’t know what it was but i miss you. i miss us texting for hours straight about everything. facetiming for 12 hours + and falling asleep together. why did you do it. why did you ghost me? why couldn’t you just talk to me about what you wanted. you knew i would never do anything to hurt you. i wanted you so badly. i wanted to make you the happiest boy in the world because you deserve it. i wanted us to be something great. but that wasn’t the case. and that’s okay. i’ll never regret my time with you. even though you crushed my feelings so bad it made me go back into paranoia. i’ll never regret a single moment that we had. the way you treated me so gentle while we where talking will be unforgettable, but the pain you caused me will be unforgettable too. you’ll never see this because i know damn you probably don’t know this website exists. but i miss you and i hope you’re doing well. just know, if you came back into my life right now... i would take you back. bye.