Unsent Messages

Dear Kaikea, I really hated the way you made me feel. At so young, you made me believe what you were giving me was love but all it brought me was pain. You made me feel things I've never felt before. During our relationship, you made me special yet so terrible. You made me love your toxicity. The way that you played games with my head and my body. Trying to take advantage of me while I was under influence, making me believe that I was the bad guy, apologizing for things that I didn't even do, and so much more. For a small amount of time, you put me through so much while I was young and I hate you for that. You told me how much you loved me, you gave me my first kiss and made me experience things that I've never done before. The way you told me that you would never leave me then tell me you wanted a "break" but then go date someone 3 days later showed how much you cared and loved me. I hate you so much, I hate how you made me feel, the way you treated me, I just hate you. You are the reason why I have so much commitment reasons, the reason why I can never give good guys a chance, the reason why love is ruined for me. You hurt me at such a young age and I am no longer capable to love the way I loved you.