I care about you. I know that when I met you we were just having fun, being friends. But I did something I wasn't supposed to.. I'm sorry about that. I know that now. I don't wanna break our friendship, I don't wanna make you feel unheard by me. I love you, but I'm so scared you'll reject me. I'm so scared that you'll hate me. I don't wanna be alone again, that's why I keep you. You make me feel happy, and fuck do I sound so sadistic but I wanna have your hands around me, hugging me, teasing me. I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore, but I did lie about one thing that is supposed to be sacred. I hope you don't find the truth, the truth that will make you see something different about me. I'm sorry for lying.