Dear ______ I think about you every day. They say if you like someone for 4 months or less it's a crush. They say if it's longer then it's love. For 4 years you've meant everything to me, I meant nothing to you, which is why I'm not sending this message. Also because you've blocked me on everything. I remember being at school and feeling nervous to walk past you. I still feel nervous when I see you. I remember falling asleep thinking about you, crying about you, laughing with you, talking with you, smiling with you. My heart aches for you, but there are so many reasons why I can't be with you. Remember when we first met and we'd just hang out and talk? We were such good friends and I miss that more than anything. You probably forgot I exist, but I can't move on from you no matter how hard I try. Although you hurt me, you made me happy, you made me smile, you were a distraction when I was at my worst. So thank you, and f*ck you. I imagine you meeting me at my window, and sneaking out and enjoying each others company. Every memory, every crush, every day, every thought, leads back to you and I can't bring myself to move on. It's always been you, it always was you, it always will be you, but I can't have you, and that's what hurts the most.









I love you.