Unsent Messages

I think i loved u. Fuck no. I loved u. I STILL FUCKING LOVE U. i know that u have to leave, and however many times u will say that it's noone fold i know it's mine. You're father told me u have to do it cos me. i am the one who ruined your life, and i don't even have to balls to tell you. FUCK. I know u don't want to leave me. I know u care about me. A refused to believe in it for so long. But u did. U still do. U left just a month ago, and i can't put the bottle down. I tried to kill myself. U were literally the only thing i had. I miss u, i want to talk to u. but the least i can do is let u live. i have to let u live. U deserve so much more than me, u deserve to move on, to not feel guilty for leaving me. U deserve the best in the world. Hope we'll meet again