Unsent Messages

My anxiety is shooting through the roof because of this. I feel like you’re deliberately confusing, because there are selfish reasons in making me go through with it. I've decided against texting anyone since nothing is clear to me. You won't see much of me. I don't know why you made me erase everything again, but I won't allow it to happen one more time. No way. You have no idea what my mind is going through. I don't know how to deal with the panic you've given me. My family is still my own, I see there is another one involved and I don't remember a single face or anything. I don't remember the child. I don't know anything. I can't breathe. My mind is trying to fight against a shocking change of reality. This time I only have a few faded memories. You're going to ruin me. Fuck you. No more ?