Sometimes I wonder if we’ll be in each other’s lives in the future and in what capacity. I want to fly to Portland and see you. I wish that you would show up and hug me. I would be yours in a heartbeat, I still am yours. When I go out with other people it feels like I’m cheating on you. But you told me not to wait so I can only assume you don’t want me. Because I would have waited. Some days I feel like I could wait a lifetime for you. I won’t do that, I’m not that pathetic. But I would have waited, had you asked.