i wish you would have know how much i loved you and still do. you were my best friend and i still cant delete your pictures out of my phone because a part of me thinks you'll come back and everything will be good again but i know it isn't true. i sat right next to you in all of our classes and we acted as if we didn't know each other and i would sit there thinking to myself what an idiot i am while you would talk to her and and flirt with her and then when the school day was over you would face time me like everything was fine but you left you did but somehow i put all of the blame on myself because in my eyes you couldn't do anything like that because in my eyes you are perfect. its been about six months since the last time we talked and somehow you just find you way back into my mind every night. we barely see each other at school any more maybe thats for the good because i know i should move on but i cant because you made me genuinely happy and your smile dont even get me started on that just by smiling you made the butterflies in my stomach rumble so hard you couldnt imagine. and they way you would say your words you would always add this type of sarcasm to it and it was just perfect. the way you made me laugh i swear i had never in my life laughed as much as when you were there. i really wish i could move on from you tho and that may be selfish to say but i dont care because even through all of that happiness after it all after when you left i became really sad. you made some of my favorite things in the world horrible . you made me wreck all of my friendships because i couldn't answer them back because i was so bad in a depressive episode that it felt like a chore to text them but if someone gave me the option to never meet you i wouldn't take it because even thru all of that you taught me a lesson you taught me that i cant put all of my happiness and dedication into one person and i cant look to others for happiness i have to be the one to bring myself happiness. i just want some closure and for you to say that you are sorry so i can finally move on because you put me thru hell but i think at the end of the day if you were to come back i would allow it because i am stupid but with you i was the happiest i had ever been. on that note i just want to say that i love you and thank you for all of the memories and lessons that i had and learned with you, from your old friend well i leave it anonymous love you. ill put it in yellow because its me and your favorite color. take it easy savannah ill talk to you later maybe well meet in a different time, in a better time when we both figured out who we are love you always