Unsent Messages

i miss you so much and i really have no reason too. We didn't even date but its just something about you that im just not ready to let go. i was always hoping that you'd ask me to be your girlfriend because i really believed you when you said you liked me but im now realizing i never even had a chance. you'll always choose her, exactly how you chose her over me. if you werent ready for something you shouldn't have lead me on or even told me you had feelings for me because now all you say seems like lies to me, but if im being honest, i cant hate you. I never will. i wasn't lying when i told you how much i really liked you and how bad i wanted something between us but clearly, you didnt feel the same. At this point, idk if i love you and that's why its taking me so long. its been 8 months and im still secretly hoping you'll come back somehow but for now this is best thing i can do to say how im feeling. i miss you richard.