Unsent Messages

you were my first love and i don’t think you realise how much you hurt me, i don’t think you realise how much damage you put on me while we were together. you broke up with me on valentine’s day and now that day will be ruined for me forever. i don’t wanna blame you for shit but i do blame you for putting me through hell, i still wonder why you used to blame me for absolutely everything that went wrong in our relationship when i know a lot of the time i was just trying to communicate with you so we could work our shit out and so i could get my feelings out but you would never let me which hurt. now you’re engaged and that hurts even more to know that you moved on straight away and not even a year out of our relationship you’re now engaged to someone. i know my mental health had a big problem to do with the breakup and our relationship but i warned you, but you still took me in thinking you could deal with me. but tbh you were the reason it got so bad i don’t think you realise you not telling me stuff or you telling me i was ‘fat’ as a joke hurt. you put the blame on me. everytime. and i wish you understood that but i’m sure you never will, i loved you so much but i just don’t think you loved me enough.