i really wanted you. so bad i almost changed everything about myself. the way i did my hair, the way i talked, even the way i thought. but it was never enough for you. you liked to see the poor girl in front of you crumble while you talked about your lovers. if only you knew how bad you truly hurt me. always leading me on when i had no chance at all. it was always the little things that you did that made my heart flutter. letting me borrow a pencil, touching my shoulder, smiling at me. thinking that out of all people you wanted me. i was sorely mistaken. but as much as i want to hate you. i can’t. you never seem to leave my mind no matter how hard i try to erase you from my memory. you just won’t leave and i blame myself for it.