Unsent Messages

I dont understand how you love. I wish I could know so I could tell you how much I loved you but now its too late. Sadly to say that you live far away but that couldnt stop me from catching feelings. I wouldve done anything for you. I would jump off a cliff for you. I would kill somebody for you. I loved you too hard and you just didnt love me back. Not like you said you did. I know you told me everyday that you loved me and I believed you for sometime. I believed you for too long. You started to show that you didnt. I began to process that once you got what you wanted, you got bored of me. That sucks because I wouldve never gotten bored of you. I wouldve never left you but now I can feel you slipping through my fingers and I can no longer grasp you because youve slipped to far. I wish you wouldve told me you were leaving so I could know in advance. So I could be ready. Now Im sitting here still hurt. Months and months and I still cant get over you. I wish you could come back. I wish you never left because you were my everything. You were my safe place, you were my home and now Im homeless. Now I dont know what to do with myself. I told you somethings I wouldve never told anybody and now you just have that information of me. Hopefully someday you can forget what I told you, just in case I never see you again. I love you and I miss you. I will never stop loving you Kai.