hey b. i miss u. u saved me from myself. no ones been able to do that before. u made me so happy, so loved. but ur not here anymore. u are but ur not. not like before. i love you. which makes this 10x harder for me. i see the person i love almost every day knowing i can’t have them. its awful. but i will continue to sacrifice myself for u bc i know things no one else knows. ik how to calm u down, i know how u think. i know you better than anyone. and i’m afraid if i leave u behind ull lose urself. maybe now is not our time but i love u b, i always have. i’m waiting for you for whenever you’re ready, and maybe that’s never, but just incase
