Unsent Messages

when I met you, I didnt expect to fall for you as much as I did because you made me feel something that I have never felt before. You made me feel seen and loved. You made me forget what it was like to hate myself. When we got together, you reminded me exactly why I hate myself. And now I look at you with tears in my eyes wondering why I wasnt enough for you and why you could treat someone so well when I didnt have an ounce of attention you give them than you did to me at the time. did you even like me? was I even worth it in your eyes? or was I just making a damn fool out of myself the whole time? its not fair. How could you make me so vulnerable, how could I show you a side of myself I hardly ever show to anyone else because of how accepting you were, and then treat me like I'm invisible? Like I didnt exist at all and I was just there to pass time? well, I should thank you, because now I know what a silly unrealistic concept love is. I should thank you because you solidified my belief that I deserve nothing good in this world, and Im better off alone. So, thank you so much, love