Unsent Messages

You destroyed me bit by bit. You took down my confidence. Bullied me thinking it was a joke. I told you stuff I never told anyone. I opened up for the first time since my ex for you. You manipulated me into opening up was the worst part about it. You made me feel shitty when I didn't wanna open up. You made me feel shitty for explaining my feelings, wanting you to stop bulling me. You judged me, you judged every part of me. I didn't know you for even a year yet and you thought I was gonna put you above friends I've known since I was in preschool. You are a fucked up person. When I would hang out with friends you would purposely start fights to my attention would be on you and not them. You would say stuff you know would make me upset, you would target my weak spots. You wouldn't let me bring up the times you upset me but you were allowed to bring up the times I upset you. I was looked over. my feelings were put aside. You were making me change into a person you wanted not what I wanted. You never thought about how I felt only how you felt. And for that fuck you fuck you for making me relapse. fuck you for driving me to the point of not wanting to get up in the morning. And fuck you for think I was gonna put loving you above loving myself. You are a really shitty person, yet I still wish the best for you and part of me still wants to be friends with you. I hate that part of me, I wanna burn that part of me and make It never come back. I hate you Alison B.