Unsent Messages

i love you i do and i keep telling myself that i don't and i don't want to but i do. youre smile makes my heart melt so hard it makes me feel so good when you laugh at my jokes, and my god before i met you i thought that brown eyes were just brown eyes ya know but no, you make them so much more. whenever we talk i feel so happy and like i am on top of the world stress free. but why do you just keep hurting me? it hurts so bad to know that if youre upset i will ask if youre okay but if im crying in the corner you wont even turn your head. it hurts to know that i dont mean as much to you as you mean to me. i hate that youre so bias, you will nonstop talk to me one day then ignore me the next? why? is it fun for you? do you enjoy that? god i look forward to every day i get with you,, it fucking sucks. i wish i didn't like you so much but i know that we wouldn't last long anyway. it just hurts seeing the person you love in love with someone else. i love you dickhead even though you're the reason i cry, i fucking love you scott.