Unsent Messages

i wish you knew how i feel.
i wish you knew that i havent forgotten a single thing. that i still care. that i wake up in tears after dreaming about you. that i listen to your songs every single day.
i wish i could go back to running in the rain and driving and walking in the woods and the bookstore and the river and hot chocolate and your house and the movies and the night i first heard your cd.
i wish you knew that i’m not trying to hurt you. everything i do is a distraction.
i wish nothing had changed and i wish i could make you trust me. i wish i could tear down the wall this forced you to build. i regret everything. i just don’t know how to fix anything.
i wish there was a way back. i dont know what to do. i’m terrified there isn’t. i miss life as it was. i miss seeing you the way we were. this isn’t how we are supposed to be.
i wish i could tell you.