Unsent Messages

I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for everything you showed me. Thank you also for making my decision for me. I never really knew if I liked you or the attention that you gave me. And then when you kissed me I didn’t know if I liked you or just liked kissing you. It was my first kiss so I didn’t know how to feel. Now that I think about it... I don’t think that I did like you because I hardly knew you. You are so different to anyone I would ever go for. I think that I just liked what you said to me and you made me feel good about myself. But you never made me feel special because I know that you hookup with so many girls and sleep around a lot. You even said it yourself, you don’t have a good reputation. With you I became a person that I never really wanted to be. You still have a long way to go and still need to learn a lot about yourself. You deserve to find happiness and to accept yourself. I’m sorry your life went the way that it did. I feel guilty when I see people like you, because it makes me realise how truly privileged I am because my life is so easy compared to yours. I can see that your family has tried to help you but now you need to help yourself. This year you have a lot of time so I think you should use it to improve yourself and get out of your routine of a different girl every week. Because otherwise your life will never change and you’ll be stuck like this forever. It may seem nice for now but I think you know that you don’t want to live like this always. Anyways... I just wanted to say thank you for letting me go because I would never have the strength to even though I didn’t want to be with you.