i don't know what i hate more. the distance between us or not being able to tell you how i feel. i know we have had conversations about this before and my answer always came out to be no. truth be told it was never a no. i know you don't want to lose the friendship we have now but i don't know how long will i have to suppress my feelings. i wish i was right next to you, holding you as you would bawl out your eyes about something rather than being separated by a screen. if you ever stumble upon this message, i hope you realize who it is. i love you, but not as a friend this time.