Unsent Messages

Man to be honest I really miss having you around. I remember when we in class together and we would sing along to Biggie songs and then we would get in trouble for talking so the teacher would tell us to be quiet or else we would get a refferal. Or how when we would be in class you would always take my pencils and tell me that its yours and you give it back to me until the end of the day. And lets not talk about how you got so much more attractive over the last three years I was in the same school as you. I liked seeing you after your practices, how you would always run your hands through your curly hair and smile with your pretty brown eyes twinkling in the sun. Or how even though you were so invested in football you would still find a way be smart and have good grades. And I was going to tell you I swear, its just that I was too scared of ruining what we had, even though you might think it was nothing or I was too scared of you rejecting me. Liking you for two and then at the end, knowing that all those two years of my life were wasted just like that because all you said was "no" I couldn't dare to say anything. I was planning on saying something at the but then corona came and you got sick, so I didn't get to see you the last two days of school and believe me I was really sad. But I am still wondering if I would have said something, would you felt the same too?