Unsent Messages

i know you’re focussing on doing your own thing right now, i’m happy that you are but after spending some time reflecting back on our relationship, i figured we could have been really good friends and the guilt of fucking up a precious friendship, still lingers. i realised how much of a great friend you were outside of the romantic aspects of our dynamic. staying up late, talking about the most random shit; ive been reminiscing it. truth is, i really miss you. as a friend. i still appreciate you for everything you’ve done and how much you’ve taught me since i think in the eventful year of 2020, you were the person who had the biggest impact on me. i really fucking miss you because you really were my best friend. this might seem meaningless to you right now because i understand that you’ve felt manipulated and betrayed but i promise, i never and i mean never ever intended for it to come across as that way. i really did plan to tell you sooner about where my feelings were at but i felt so much that it was too difficult for me to navigate. but i understand. you were such a special friend of mine and i want to always cherish our bond because i will always be grateful for you. thank you for everything, i seriously appreciate you so fucking much and once again i apologise. you will always have a friend in me even if you’re not here anymore. ily dadriangel and i wish you the absolute best!!