if you wanted to talk to me i know you would. i feel so bad for how i ended it, but i was just waiting for you to talk to me every day. im sorry i was so rude dude but i needed to be in control with how i felt. you dont love me. i miss you so much. you were my first love. its been about a month and i still cant really comprehend this. just the thought of you makes me cry. i hate how this is the only way i can talk to you. i just want to lay with you again aidan. remember all the good times we had please.