i wonder if you understand the flirty texts and subtle hints towards something more... do you want something more? or are you content as is? i wish i knew, i wish i knew whether to jump into that void hoping to find your warm hand waiting for me. or if i jump, will the echos of silence and shame become so tight i have to break to make space for my aching heart. part of me hopes you see this so you can understand how frustrating it is to have to text smile face after smile face with nothing in response. the other part of me hides this away from you, like a child hides their stolen candy from their mother. knowing if it's shared, the sweetest could be spoiled...