Unsent Messages

I started liking you in highschool and slowly started to even fall in love with you freddy, you caught my eye the moment you walked in 5th period the first day of freshmen year. I always got jealous when you are around girls, i know im stupid lmao. I always though what it would be like if we had a future. I miss you so god damn much its not funny. Corona fucked everything up. I miss our convos, or the times we just smiled at eachother when we talked, your smile gave me life and it would be the only reason for me wanting to go to school every single day. I wake up and sleep thinking about you. Your eyes just make me fall more in love with you every second. I have dreams about you that I just cant control. Its been 3 years since I had this crush on you..almost four in few months. I wish i could tell you how i feel, i just feel like you would not feel the same way and i would hate that. I cry knowing that i cant confess to you and im so god damn sorry i cant freddy. Freddy if you see this, i will give you a hint to maybe who i am, we were friends since freshmen year, in sophomore year we almost had every class together and heres another hint.. we even had drivers ed with eachother and we would do some stupid sh!ttttt. I miss hearing your laugh everyday and even your voice overall. i hope one day you know how i feel.... its just the right timing has not come yet i guess... maybe in another universe or time ....it would be perfect, right? i.miss.you. P.S. PLZZ GUYS DONT POST THIS ON SOCIAL MEDIA I WOULD BE EMBARASSED LMAOO PLZZZZZZZZ.