hey. i know it’s been a while, and we’re not on great terms, but i just wanted to talk. this may be very out of the place we’re at right now, but i was wondering if you wanted to go for a walk, or out for coffee. i feel like every time we’ve talked about what happened with us it was super unproductive, and didn’t do anything, whether that would have been to have some type of closure, or to try to repair anything.

i only ask this because, and please don’t take this personally, i feel like every time we’ve talked, it hasn’t just been me and you talking, it’s been me talking to all of you, and feeling grouped up on. i may be completely wrong about that, but that’s how it felt. i just think things might actually be clearer if we were to physically talk, so things stop being confusing.

i’m reaching out to you specifically because i feel like you and i specifically may have something left to salvage. i pretty much have accepted that nothing’s moving forward with ayanna and tedi. they made that very clear in the way they acted towards me when we talked, but you were more receptive to actually talking to me, even if it turned out to be pointless. i feel like we were closer than the others, and i really miss you.
i don’t know if this is completely stupid or pointless, but i thought i’d reach out to check. i know i shouldn’t, because this whole situation made me feel horrible for a long time after all of this happened, but i do miss you. i know things will never be the same, and i’ve come to peace with that, but i thought i’d just try and see if there’s anything left here.