even at times when I’m completely frustrated with us, i still smile inside at the thought of you. it stinks to think that we may not end up together now, unless one of us breaks and reaches out.. i’m sorry everything has become complicated. this has been really draining and I haven’t been myself lately. i honestly haven’t been out much and haven’t really wanted to.. there’s so much I want to say and know it sucks. you have no idea how difficult it’s been on my end. between obsessing, trying to figure you out and trying to make sure you’re ok, it’s exhausting. i hate having to try to read people.