From: ABC
To: matthew
Date: December 22, 2020, 9:11 pm
remember that day you told me you loved me? i didn’t say it back right away not because i didn’t love you but because i didn’t love you the way you loved me.
i was still learning to love you and didn’t want to rush into things like i did in the past i didn’t wanna mess things up. how ironic i still think 3 years later that this very memory is what started a series of unfortunate events which lead to two broken hearts. i know you moved on and with every inch of my being i want to be happy for you but i can’t help but feel heartache. i want to make you happy, i want to tell you i love you , i want to go on dates with you , i want to talk for hours about absolutely anything and everything, i want to hold you , i want to slow dance in the dark with you i just want you.
but due to my own stupidity, my own selfishness i can’t have the one thing i most want in this world. i can’t even have a millisecond of eye contact.