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that’s me. i’m daph. these past couple months have been really hard. i met this guy (not like physically just online) and we got rly close. we had so much in common and he helped me through a really rough patch. he taught me how to love myself and how to love others. i really wish it would have worked out but i knew deep down it wouldn’t. he told me he needed some time alone and i spent the next 5 days worrying and thinking about him. i texted him and told him i couldn’t do it anymore. i learned he had a girlfriend (i don’t know if he was with her and talking to me) that’s probably the worst thing about it. how can you tell someone you love them and then tell them you need time only to be with a girl? i’m not angry at him for having a girlfriend i’m angry that he felt like he couldn’t tell me. like i was too fragile to hurt. i’m trying my best to move on but it’s hard. i don’t even miss him. i miss having someone in my life who cares. who cares enough to point out that i’ve been smoking a little too much and who cares enough to remind me to eat. im happy that he’s happy. but i think i would be happier if i was happy too