Unsent Messages

yeah it’s me. exactly who you’re thinking of. how are you? i see you’re still making some Tik Toks about your ex. (that’s me i can tell) i know i wasn’t perfect but i think we could be perfect together. i’ve been working on myself ever since you said you had someone else. i’ve never felt more confident about myself. we have both grown i can tell. i’m in a healthy happy relationship but there is still something missing. why do i still look for you wherever i go around this town? why do i get a sharp feeling in my stomach every time someone says your name? why do i still feel love toward you and not hate? i should fucking hate you. you put me through hell and i know i gave it right back to you. but i never gave you false hope. but you laura, gave me plenty of it. i should hate you but i don’t. and i think that speaks a lot. i know you miss me. i know you still think of me. i know those songs we use to scream together driving around this boring town or floating around in your pool to, still come on and i know i’m your first memory attached to those songs. when you realize we are meant to make it together, you know how to get in touch. i’ll be here. pinky promise.. (yellow for poem book)