you're doing better now, and i want to ask if you still have those thoughts of me or if i was some passing fancy in the darkness you were in. i wonder what it would be like if we had kissed that night but then you're still with him and even though i'm a bad person i don't want to be the one who destroys what you have even if i will always be the one with what ifs. but i will always wonder if you have those too.