i know we don’t really talk anymore, but i just want to tell you how thankful i am for you. thank you so so so much for showing me love when i had never really felt it. thank you for helping me become myself. thank you for caring about me constantly during the worst months of my life. i can honestly say i don’t know what i would’ve done without you. i feel so at home in your arms. i miss your voice. we always say we’re gonna make plans but never do. hehe isn’t that so silly. anyway, if you ever read this, know that i love you so much and i am so grateful to you for loving me in the happiest and saddest months of my life and helping me out of them. i love you ben. i miss you.