Unsent Messages

hey look, i really really really really like you. i want to stay with i really do, but i dont know if i can anymore, i wish i could open up to you and tell you more about this, but i cant. its nothing you did and its not you, its me. im going through a lot right now and i want you to understand that i like you, even if you dont care. i have a feeling that you do care even if you dont tell me or show me, but i think i just need a break right now, i have a lot of things going on in my life right now with moving, and my parents, and just everything honestly and im just so stressed and i hate being up at night crying myself to sleep because i start thinking you dont like me anymore, and thinking that you just dont care, and ive tried hinting to you that im not doing okay but youre just not getting it. i like you, a lot, youre different, and ive said that to other people but idk. theres obviously something wrong with me and i dont know what it is, you briefly know about my childhood, and theres a lot more you dont know, you pretty much only know about my mom and my best friend but its not even that, thers so much i havent told and i wish i could but i feel like you just never wanted to take the time to listen to me. i love you, and you deserve so much better im sorry. and if or when you read this i think you will know its me so im not gonna put who this is from. just please find someone better okay? i love you so so much.