I love you. I wish you would just calm down. I wish that switch was gone. Because of you im scared to have children. I dont want them to be scared of me, I dont want to traumatize them. I know you work hard and i know your dad raised you this way but now im damaged. Now i have that anger that can easily be poured out. And I hate it. I have your anxiety and anger issues wtf. Why couldnt you just use protection if it was gonna be like this. Fuck you. You always manipulated me into feeling bad. I fucking hate you.