Unsent Messages

I know you are suppose to send this to a first love or something like that but I just need to talk about my feelings because there are so many things on my mind and I have no one to really talk to because if I tell people i am not ok they wont believe me so here we go. First of all i just want to say is that i love you dad i know you dont want to be apart in my life you kicked me out the house a young age for the stupidest reason but i still love you and miss you but you dont the reason i know this is that you cant even respond to one of my messages. Secondly i have been thinking why do people hate me i try my hardest to do what people tell me so i can fit in but whatever i do because just become my enemies so that is why i currently only have one friend and i also used to have fake friends that spread rumors about me so that is other reason but im fine with that because i am been lonely for a very long time so i am used to it. if you are someone reading this i dont want to bored you with my whole story so this is the last part. You know when i said im not ok well im really not its just i have to pretend that im ok but all i do is put a smile on 24/7 it gets easier the longer you fake smile so thats the good part but if i tell people no one would believe me not even my own/only friend would believe me they would just say your fine you are being to dramatic which makes me mad a bit but thats ok because i cant lose her like how i have lot a lot of people already so thats the end of this if you have read all of this i just want you to know if you dont feel loved just know i love you, i know i dont know you but i still love you :)