Unsent Messages

I wasn’t good enough for you. She is. She is skinner, prettier, smarter. You choose her over me. I was your „second”. You only wanted nudes from me. I was only body for you. You were soo nice and you told me that you like me sm, i remember all things you said to me THAT night.. You told me that you care about me. Once, you helped me when i had my first panic attack.. do you remember that? Broo i told you bout my trauma, and you still left. It was all a fcking lie. You choose her and you will always chose her. She is heather. I heard what you told her about me.. she told me. I cried myself to sleep every night after this. Im not mad.. okay maybe sometimes i am. i told you how much i hate myself. I hate myself every day more (because of my trauma) and you still left and did what you did... bro.. i trusted you. If you show something to your friends, i will k1ll myself and you know that.. im so scared that something will flow up. I wrote a su1cidal letter few weeks ago and you are there... im not going to do this idk, but you know. I miss you so much. Now its 1am and i need to go to sleep, but i cant. I cant stop thinking about you. Idk if you know that but i wrote a song for you about how much you hurted me. something. But i didnt finish it. Goodnight michael. Have fun with her:))