I listened to the soundcloud album you wrote me earlier this year. Maybe you'll notice that the number of plays on the songs increased, or maybe you don't pay any attention anymore. I also revisited a song I wrote for you when we broke up briefly in the beginning. Its about how sorry I was that I couldn't help but shut down in the face of your adoration. I truly don't know how to let anyone in or how to accept the love you were willing to give me. It's better for you that we aren't together anymore. I told you I always felt poisonous but what I really meant is that deep down I don't have to capacity to have secure attachment or true intimacy. Thanks for letting me try for awhile.
