Unsent Messages

i will never hate you but the way you spoke me was unacceptable and i’ll never forgive you for the things you called me. you’re right, i did do everything for you, i gave you all that i had, i told you everything and you used it against me, hurting me more and more until i felt numb. i understand because i got fed up of us too. i chose not to put myself through that anymore, if i wasn’t enough after all that time i was never going to be but i know i’m worth so much more and i’m deserving of the love i give out to others. i understand you’ve been through a lot, i know more than anyone but i never gave you a good enough reason or excuse for you to treat me like you did. i do hope someday you realise the lasting effect you’ll have on me from now on, i am always going to question whether someone is serious about me or whether they’re ashamed of me. i really loved you and tried to do all that i can to make sure you weren’t alone and that you ate and slept and you really did just not give a shit, i would sit there crying and you wouldn’t shed a tear sometimes. i’m glad your grateful and i do hope you flourish and someday realise that feeling all emotion isn’t a bad thing and rather, it’s actually quite beautiful. take your time, stay hydrated.