Unsent Messages

I miss you so much these past days of us not being together really just has been so rough. I'm glad to say that you're my first love, and I just miss all the hours we spent talking. I look over some screenshots of our texts, and I miss all of it. I miss the way you cared for me, when you would sing songs by Giveon that you memorized for me because you knew I wanted to slow dance with you with songs by Giveon. I miss staying up to talk to you on the phone, and how I would get butterflies during class when you would text me saying you loved me. I remember our first I love you. I remember how hearing your voice made me fall asleep and how you remembered every little thing about me that I couldn't even remember. Now it's all just memories and something that I wish could last forever. You once told me that we would last forever but that that came to an end. We were toxic but I would still live through all the pain just to be happy with you again. I was in love with you and I still am. You will always be the one I think of when someone asks who I love. No matter what I could never hate you, you made me so happy and you were the reason I actually wanted to wake up. I care about you so much and I would do anything just to hear your voice again, to get back together, or to just get a text from you. I still haven't deleted the pictures of you because I just can't. You will always be my yellow, my first love, and my happiness. I love you Aaron. Just like you once said to me, I'm madly in love with you