Unsent Messages

Hi lol, it's been awhile since we talked. You probably don't care if we are in speaking conditions or not but it hurts me that we don't communicate anymore. I know that we never actually dated or anything but I really did love you a lot and even though I tell myself that I don't deep down I still do. You were and still are the only guy that made me feel some type of way. I know that I'm not your first love but you're mine. When I told you I loved you I meant it. Losing you was the hardest thing to overcome. I thought we would be more than friends. I guess good things have to come to an end eventually. I wished that you still had feelings for me. If you would've texted me I would've responded in a heartbeat. Every single time I get a notification I wished it was from you... I think about you when I got to bed and when I wake up. When you probably could care less if I was dead or alive. I told you I was always gonna be there for you and I still mean it. I want to check up on you but that's not my place anymore. My love for you wan't fake. I never would've thought that you would be this important in my life lol. I even told my family about you... and then you leave my life a week later lmaooo. I can't like other guys because they're just not you. I look for you in every guy but they're NOT you. I miss the way you used to make feel. You made me feel butterflies.I still remember all the things you said to me. I miss you so goddam much. I would do anything just to talk to you again.