Unsent Messages

Hi beautiful, this is everything I want to tell you. I am so proud of you. You’ve come so far and I’m so so so beyond proud of everything you’ve accomplished. Moving away is hard and it’s scary but you grew up and handled it so well. You’ve been through a lot and you took it like a champ. It’s okay not to be okay, please try and remember that. You have so many amazing friends who love you so much, and I know that you love them. I’m so happy that you found people who make you the best version of yourself, that’s the girl I know and love. I never imagined that moving away would solve all of your problems, but I now see that it did. I am so grateful that you found yourself again, even if that place happens to be 1000 miles away. You are strong. You are beautiful. You are loved. You are so important to so many people, more than you will ever know. I know that K would be so proud of you right now, she’s watching over you with love. You are kind and funny and gorgeous and most definitely someone’s dream girl. You made mistakes, but so does everybody else. You grew from them and learnt a lot of lessons. This year was hard, but it was beautiful in its own way. To all of the people you met, learned to love, and let go of: I am thankful. They helped shape you into the person you are today. If you ever feel down, look back at yourself from a year ago and remind yourself that everything comes to an end; the bad and the good. Better things always come, even if it takes awhile. You found your spirit again, and I am forever thankful for that. To all of the beautiful people you opened your heart to, you have a forever friend in them. They love you and appreciate you. Your thoughts are not reality, do not let your mind lie to you. If you are ever doubting someone’s love for you, don’t. You are worthy of love. Do not second guess yourself. Do big things, it’s written in the stars. To my beautiful girl, my beautiful Bella: I love you and I am so proud of you. A free heart and endless spirit, you have the capacity for infinite loves. Please do not ever let anyone stop you from opening your heart to the world. Let your light shine. Let people hear your beautiful laugh. You make waves, you are so important. Fearless in ways never imaginable, I know that you’ve been through so much. Loss is hard, and heartbreak is painful. You are strong and selfless. You have a beautiful heart and a beautiful mind, and I am forever grateful that you feel like yourself again. I knew that you outgrew this city, you are supposed to do bigger things than this place could contain. Let the world hear you, don’t let anyone hold you back. I know you get scared sometimes, but you have no reason to be. Their opinions don’t matter, they are just as scared as you are. So, please, go be free. Go be beautiful and crazy and wild and laugh until your voice cracks. Smile until your face hurts and your eyes squint. Please, go live your life. Be alive. Do it for K. Experience all that the world has to offer. If you ever doubt yourself, know that I’m here for you. I love you and I am so proud of how far you’ve come. Show the world your beauty, show them your heart. Embrace your humor and beautiful mind and create wonderful things. To my girl, I am so proud of you. You care for so many people, and never fail to give all of your love. A letter to you, from me. I am so proud of you. Continue to dream big and experience the beauty of this Earth. Even if you doubt me or forget: I love you, always.