Unsent Messages

I loved you with my whole being, my heart pumped for you when you swooped in and saved me from the horrors of the world and I cannot thank you enough for that. You were my everything and I can't believe you left, at the end of us I remember laying next to you after we had sex for the last time and you told me that you didn't want to do it again because you were using me. That night I knew that it was going to be the last time I saw you, and you held me as I tried to grasp the little things that were left. You called me 2 days later saying that you wanted to leave, and I fought like hell for you, for weeks. For months I would drive by your house and flip your car off, I couldn't stand seeing it knowing how many good memories we had in there. When I would get to Miller I would also see you and I was terrified, I would be violently shaking every time I saw your towering figure. You truly broke me, and I don't blame you. We weren't meant to be and that's okay. Know that I will always love you, even though we haven't talked since senior year. You really were my first love and it feels like I will never be able to shake you.