Unsent Messages

you’re probably going to read this and know it’s me. if you do, don’t say anything to me about it, just act like you haven’t seen this. this is a goodbye message, it’s not me trying to get you back, i promise. god i wish things could have just worked out. i guess maybe we’re both too damaged to be able to be put together. i just can’t help be sad when i look back at us and i really hope i can find someone than can make me feel like how you did, and i hope i can move on quickly, but i’m doubting it honestly. i genuinely have all my best memories with you; the time we literally got hailed on, watching the sunset from the bridge, sitting in that bloody tree, the escape room, the arcade, the bad movies, and my favourite one, and probably my favourite memory of all time, sitting on that old dock and looking at the river before i left. although i’m literally crying while i write this, i’m actually just happy we could sort things out. maybe one day i’ll see you again. genuinely, i hope you do well this year and you get everything you hope for. you are so talented and i know you’re going to flourish in your industry, and i am so so so proud of how much you’ve done and how far you’ve come from everything you’ve been through. you should be proud of yourself too, and i hope you realise how amazing you are. i truly think you are a beautiful person and i’ll never forget how happy you made me. we weren’t even together long but, i’m just so happy it happened. i’ll always care about you harry, and if you need anything, to talk, support, advice, if you need to see me, a hug, anything, i’m a text away. i’m hoping this will be the last time i write to you on here, but i know it won’t. i have so much to unpack and i just don’t know how to put it into words. i have so much love for you, and i hope eventually, in future, i’ll be able to be friends with you, because you are such a special person to me. so this is a goodbye. thank you for everything, the memories, making me feel important and safe, and for being nearly all my firsts. i wouldn’t have had it any other way. :)