Unsent Messages

It's been a year since I realized I gave my soul and body for you to just absolutely take advantage of, you say I couldn't separate love from possession. But I think you honestly didn't know the difference, everyday I wake up crying and hating my body, blaming myself for allowing you to touch me, and feeling like you owed my body. Blaming myself for wanting to die, blaming myself for you taking care of me in my weak moment and still always just wanting to please you. I want to scream from the highest mountain but nothing can take back what's already happened. I just pray for the universe to balance itself. You don't deserve love, you need to learn to love yourself first and then forgive and apologize for your previous actions. I don't wish you good luck, I wish you truth and clarity cause you are so clouded. You care too much about what other people think, you are in a constant cycle only you can break. Unfortunately you're so blinded by your own logic you can't see what's right in front of you. Stop thinking about me or ever mentioning me again. You're dead to me just as I am to you. Frankly I love my life right now. Im so much further than I would ever be if I was with you. So thank you, for leaving but fuck you for my trauma.