Unsent Messages

i have decided this will be my last submission. i won't come back to this website and search my name in hopes that you left me something and i am no longer going to check your social media. i deserve better, thank you for helping my realize that. it isn't fair that i have been nothing but kind to you never reciprocate it. two whole years of trying to get you to love me, two whole years of wondering what was wrong with me. i listen to your relationship problems and give you advice no matter how much it hurts me. i feel like deep down you know that it hurts me, but you have me wrapped around your finger. i know you better than anyone, but you haven't taken the time to know me. no one else will ever put up with your bullshit like i do. you are constantly moving from one relationship to the next and you don't realize how bad these people are for you but i do. how do i tell you that your relationships are destined to fail because you're seeking to fill a void that you can only fill by yourself? don't you know that too? you are wasting your time. you have always prioritized your relationships over your friends. you can never make time to hang out with me, not even on my birthday but of course you can be with her every single day. it hurts. you only speak to me when she's not here and i can't cope with that. i can't just be a place filler anymore. you may be my only friend but you really fucking suck. i would rather be alone than to keep pretending like you are a good person. you have changed so much. i don't like how things change. i can't even stand to talk to you anymore so i won't. i'll stop answering my phone and slowly but surely i'll stop thinking about you . i hope she's worth it.