i know it says first love but what if it’s the guy now the guy that i see in my future the guy that i want just so bad the guy i love so very much and all i can think about is him hurting me leaving me after everything if he’s leaves i’m done that’s the end for me he doesn’t understand how much he means to me and i don’t know how to tell him either so i guess i’ll sit there and when he hurts me to continue with this fake smile because it’s been fooling everyone for 8 years