Unsent Messages

i don't think you ever knew about how much i cared about you. i wish that i didn't leave that impression when we broke things off for good. the amount of good night messages left in my drafts, the times where i was afraid of opening up because love is so daunting, not wanting to hurt you through my process of dealing w/ my mom issues. i still think of you some days, i think of how i would take back everything if it just meant being able to be your friend, watch those eyes of you glimmer when you talk about your favourite songs. i miss being able to go on walks with you and laugh at the stupidest shit. or waterpark trips. i know i hurt you, and nothing i do will ever erase the hurt i inflicted on you because i was selfish and my issues were the only thing on my mind. i hope these days you're doing better, i hope i don't linger in your mind even if i wish i would, i hope that you find someone that would love you and bring you happiness. if you see this, idk text me or whatever. or not. idk i'd just like to know that this was seen. and i think you know who this is. i don't think I'll text you again simply because i don't think you'd like that. so i guess this is my last goodbye then.