You hurt me. And not out of mere rejection as you believe. What deeply hurts is the knowledge you left me with- that I can trust and feel completely at ease with someone who has only ever been pretending. I'd change so much if I could and rewind to October. Yet, I question if that would be enough. Halloween displayed that I am an option to you, and the ease with which you discarded me I also cannot ignore. I start to wonder if we even experienced the same few weeks together. Thats the most painful.
You are by far my biggest surprise.
M.