Unsent Messages

you honestly broke me to pieces, i loved you. i knew i couldn't be with you considering you're almost 18. i was so scared for the day you'd drop me because you were of age. little did i know that day would come a lot sooner than i thought. you left me 3 times, you'd come back each time but this time you never did. i waited for the ft or text that i'd get when you'd come back, i never got one. it was one week after my birthday that you left, and a week before that you left the second time. i told god "why did he have to leave right before my birthday? why couldn't he have left after?" and that's exactly what happened. you said you'd come see me on my birthday but you never did. you didn't even ft me, but you told me that you loved me. i'd always wish you good luck for your golf tournaments, and tell you to be safe when you were on your way home and it was raining. i'm still gonna text you on your 18th even tho it may be the last time i'll ever hear from you, but that's okay because i just want that last text. knowing that you still know who i am. your girlfriend might not me too happy about it but at this point i don't even care. thank you for everything you've ever done for me, i miss you dearly.