who knows if you're reading this. as much as i convince myself that this was for your own good, it pains me so goddamn much. i'll never learn to hate you though. you were the person that taught me to have empathy again, to care for others, and to help. why? why did you have to be so PERFECT. i could never be mad at you. i loved you so much that it hurt. hurt especially because i grew too close to you, you were the only person ive ever trusted this much but its okay. as long as i know that i was able to help you, im okay. i love you so much and i hope your future is as good as i ever hoped for it to be.